Stuff

My dad wrote something on Gem’s site that I had to read in two parts, basically because I was sobbing one paragraph into it… one sentence into it.    I am trying to think of a fitting thing to do with this post, as I think it’s quite touching.   Any ideas?     

Tears seem to be the way of my day for the last few days.   Yesterday, I had a bad day.   Everything was going wrong, really.    People accused me of potentially ruining their training for the next day.    People were picking on me for not getting things done, when I was constantly busy.   I missed Ian.   

When I heard Ian’s voice, I burst into tears in the middle of work.    “What’s wrong?” he said.   “I don’t know!”, meaning I had a hard time picking the most upsetting issue at the time, but it pretty much narrowed down to one thing:

I had a doctor’s appointment and felt crappy because I knew I would have to get on a scale and didn’t want to.   It’s like an annual competition for me.   I actually postpone my doctor’s appointment until I know I weigh less than the year before.  

So I got to the doctor’s office and he started talking about diet… just because he’s chatty and he picked that topic because he’d been doing research about carbs and losing weight.   He said, “But you don’t need to know that.   Whatever you’re doing is the right thing.   Keep it up.”   

I just stared at him as if he was psychic.

Evidently, I’d lost a decent amount of weight over the last year.     I’m on the “but I don’t WANT to exercise, maybe I’ll try Tae Bo, or maybe not” plan.    It’s not that quick.  Trust me.

I left feeling quite a bit happier.  I think I’m the first person to ever have a breakdown over an annual doctor’s exam for reasonably silly reasons.

Today started out with the more-than-lovely post by my dad, a talk with my boss about dealing with coworkers (a good one) and two training classes that I lead that went quite well, thankyouverymuch!  The best part was nailing the training that was SUCH an unintelligible (in someone else’s opinion) mess yesterday, and watching it work perfectly for everyone except the person who complained.