You find it necessary to run down your list of everything you’ve done stupidly, or you wished you wouldn’t have done? This is part of the root of my morning anxiety. It pains me to know that you can’t fly back in time and erase things.
This morning, I started to make a list of things that I am glad I have not done.
- I have not done any illicit drugs
- I have not sold drugs to anyone
- I have not slaughtered a cow. Really. That’s gross.
- I have not stolen money
- I haven’t gotten hot-headed and walked out on a job
- I haven’t purposely driven my car into anything (well, except that yard when I was 15. But that wasn’t really my fault…lol)
- I haven’t eaten worms or bugs
- I haven’t launched off any nuclear weapons
- I haven’t told any of my friends they are evil bastards, even though I sometimes want to.
- I haven’t lied to anyone.. Wait. That’s not true. Liar! 🙂
- I have not woken up in the morning and required alcohol to start my day
Things I try to do well…
- Be a good daughter, wife, sister and mother, although some days I don’t think I’m succeeding enough
- Be gainfully employed on a regular basis
- Keep my house clean. (Nice try, eh?)
- Not take any crap from anyone
- Pay the bills on time
- Not be careless with my resources… money, gas, food, stuff we need to live
- Attempt to make up for those times whenI wasn’t quite up-to-par with other people.
- Keep learning, in some way
- Be a responsible pet owner
- Be creative
- Be sympathetic and caring to people and animals
- Learn from my mistakes
Did this help me? I don’t know. Someday, someone will find a cure for early morning anxiety. Maybe I should have a beer when I wake up. 🙂
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